I AM AN EPITOME OF PROCRASTINATION

Do you ever just thought that you're wasting your time? Do you ever just thought that you don't have something to say you're good at? Do you ever just envy your friends for where they are now? Do you ever just wanted to change but can't? Because I... I always do.

I don't know why am I like this, like I am always spending my time on worthless things and never ever prioritize the things I should. I don't want to cram and procrastinate, those are the games I don't like to play but why do I, every time? It feels like I was born with the curse of it. I always read quotes like "dreams won't work unless you do" and "work hard or you'll work hard to build somebody's dream" and "a goal without an action is just a dream". And yeah, I get inspired but for only like seconds and here I am again, back to the usual stuffs I do.

I love dreaming because you can be anything you want—a supermodel, president, a novelist, a famous band member's girlfriend and everything else—but I don't wanna be stuck there, I want my dreams to be reality. I don't want this procrastination thing to be my habit, although it feels like it is now.

 And I know I can't spend my whole life reading books, watching movies, listening to bands and tweeting my feelings. And I know I am living a life of purpose. I just can't give up those things. Maybe, the first step to get rid of procrastination is realize the important things you must do. And maybe, realization doesn't come to me yet.

I envy the people around me who can do better, because I don't have anything to say I am good at. I know that I can play guitar but I am not really good, I just know how to. And I envy them because I know that they worked so much for that. Not everything is given, sometimes you just have to work out for you to realize that you have that talent.

 Don't get me wrong, I just want to be somebody and leave a mark. 

I know I could do better than dreaming.

♥ yelalalove ♥